firelement85

So I just noticed I haven't posted anything for six months and I totally missed my one year anniversary on Livejournal, whateves. The first line of my last post is still relevant but perhaps it's my own fault as I never tell those people that gray text on a white background is really hard to read so they aren't going to change, though you would think that would be fucking obvious.

So I am alive and I'm even working now, though as a telemarketer so it's not great but at least I'm doing something and I totally have a huge crush on my supervisor and I think he may too but I so don't wanna go there. Could be changing soon or maybe going back to study, I'm waiting to see if I get this florist assistant job and if I don't then I think I'll do a massage course.

I still have a fic that has been half finished for months now but I'm going to finish it soon, no I really am because I'm starting to hear it call my name, it wants to be finished. It's not even that long just a couple thousand words so I don't know why I'm dragging my ass.

It's not every day that one of your best friends messages you and says 'Did I ever tell you I was in love with you'. No you didn't and because I'm emotionally retarded I never noticed and then you tell me not to worry with weird messages, I think you are drunk, 'I'll call you later if my man bash me' and now I'm worried, what is going on?? I know you aren't a cranker so I am taking this seriously, even if you take it all back tomorrow I'm still going to worry

You are one of my best friends and while I might love you as a friend I'm not in love with you. I think I wish I was, it would probably make me feel less crap right now.

Went and saw 30 seconds to mars last night, I had a lot of fun, the second half was much better than the first half though that was probably because I got out of the mosh pit and was able to breathe and not having to concentrate on not falling over. I am sore all over, my feet have some nice bruises from getting crushed while in the mosh pit, I had to take my shoes off and hold them because I was going to lose them, at one point I was talking to/squashed up against a chick who said that her shoes were lost. I have some how managed to pull my right bicep and I don't even know how. The support band were fucking terrible, when they announced their last song everyone cheered then laughed, then we had to wait 45 minutes for 30 seconds to mars to come out, I started out left of the middle but got pushed out to the right hand side eventually thought that was cool because I was closer to Shannon then. Couldn't see much sometimes, tall guys should not be allowed to go anywhere near the front, I'm average height for a chick but I still can't see a bloody thing, only got a couple glimpses of Tomo but he had his hair all over his face and so I feel like I didn't really see him, Tim buzzed around like a crazy person and Jared was his usual self all over, so many people were surprised when he went to do the acoustic set in the middle of the crowd, maybe I just spend too much time on the internet. I appreciate Jared apologizing for taking 4 years to get back to Australia but he also said that they will be back for Soundwave and I have already checked out that it's on March 4 next year, I'll just have to keep an eye on it because festivals sell out so damn quick. I bought one shirt, red with a wolf and 'I believe in nothing but the truth and who we are' on it and a triad necklace, I wanted a hoodie because I love them but at $100 I am not made of money.

Got dragged to an audition for Deal Or No Deal today, had to fill out a form that asked questions like three words to describe yourself, what is your luckiest moment, what is the best thing you have bought with $10 or less, what would you send various amounts of money on. Then there was an interview where you have to be all bubbly and shit and tell them why you should be the ones they pick to be the case opener. They told us it takes between 2 and 12 months to be called up and if you haven't been called up by then you haven't been chosen.

Listening to 30 seconds to mars on the radio right now doing an interview, funny as usual, their answer to how they got their name is funny and now they have completely cracked up talking about Shannon getting an erection on stage, wonderful. Will have to see if I can grab the podcast.

Free public transport tomorrow and it's the one day this week I don't need to go anywhere :(

Going to watch Rush, bloody good Aussie show.

Went to a 3rd birthday party today, was traveling home on the train at 11pm and I got fined about $170 for having my feet up on the seat. Sitting quietly reading a book resting on my legs, I had my thongs/flip flops resting on the seat in front of me when a plain clothes inspector asked for my ticket, I showed it to him, he said it was fine but I had my feet on the seat and proceeded to ask me for all my ID and why I had my feet up, to rest my book, I'm tired, the seats are a lot more comfortable sitting like this.

As you may be able to guess I'm fucking pissed off, how in the fuck is that worth $170. It's not like I'm taking up the seat that someone could be sitting in when there are only a couple people in the carriage, I'm not damaging the seat, the thongs are rubber and the buttons on my jeans are much more likely to do damage to the seat, I'm not doing any anti-social behaviour, graffiting or cutting up the seats, I'm not even eating or drinking and getting food all over the seats.

Fuck you, how about putting effort into actually catching people who are doing something that negatively impacts the system, the ones who actually graffiti the seats and windows, break things and make you want to get off at the next station and just wait for the next train because a fight is going to break out soon rather than alienating people who use the system in good faith.

When I get my fine I'm writing a letter and I better fucking get out of it because $170 does not fit my supposed fucking crime, if it was $20 I would probably pay it no worries, but $170 who in hell is running this fuckery.

Fuck.

*sigh*

Note to self, you may be the wandering type but after 5 years of being a bit of a nomad it's time to live at the one place for a little while, MOVING IS TOO FUCKING HARD, if you start getting the idea of moving in the next couple years come back and remind your self of the exhaustion caused by moving all of the crap you own (which is about twice as much as it use to be I swear). I have a bunch of bruises on my inner left upper arm, no idea how it happened but there it is. Dad also said that next time I move I better have a boyfriend, husband or tribe of children to help me move.

I have first been packing then moving then buying more crap at IKEA, catching up on sleep and getting everything unpacked, I at least found my undies after a couple days ago \0/, still have a couple boxes left to unpack though and lots of papers that I have to go through.

I have a lot of posts to catch up on, a huge backlog going on but I will get to them eventually. Happy birthday to Shannon Leto mostly thanks for all the fic that your birthday spawns .

On the weekend I moved we had a one in a hundred year storm, I know how to pick em, it came out of almost nowhere, we were expecting some showers but were not expecting a months rain in a day and hail the size of at least golf balls in our area and up to tennis balls in some other areas. The kitchen window in my old apartment was smashed by hail and the apartment next to it, which is on the third floor started flooding through the window all over her electrics. The city basically came to a standstill the streets in the cbd were rivers and the trains were stopped because the hail destroyed the roof at one of the stations in the cbd. No one was killed or severely injured which is incredible.

But my new place is pretty cool, my brother already had me laughing til I cried yesterday and I noticed outside my bedroom window that I live across from the Australian Croatian Community Services which makes me think of Tomo every time I see it.

I only found out a couple days ago that Bob has left My Chemical Romance and that they canceled their appearance at Soundwave so I'm glad that I decided not to buy a ticket a couple months ago because even though there were other bands that I wouldn't mind seeing the tickets are just too expensive if the band I want to be seeing don't show up even if they have a legitimate reason.

Alright, other posts to get to and crap to unpack.